RE.

"And what was said to the rose to make it unfold, was said to me here in my chest" - David Crowder Band

"Re" seems to be a recurring (aha!) theme in my life lately. So many words that begin with those two commonly used letters are so applicable and appropriate for how I am currently feeling in my life.

I feel refreshed, rejuvenated, relieved, renewed, etc... I feel new, I feel alive. I have had a sudden inrush of passion, love, joy, excitement and general zeal for life. I have never felt better. It has got me to thinking of how God works in lives. Last semester was a rough one for me. Feelings of apathy determined what I did with myself. I was not overly motivated to do much with myself, I felt as though maintaining status quo with my life was perfectly acceptable. I did not have much desire to strive for more. But then I did the best thing for myself that I have done in months, something that was severely lacking within my personal life, and that is reading the Bible.

It is an incredible thing to see how spending regular time in the bible has had a direct influence on the course of my life. Regular time in the bible seems like such a natural thing to do as a Christian and just what everyone should always do, but lately I have seen more and more in my current situation that there is a decreasing number of individuals in regular scripture study. OH what they are missing out on!

I have never felt so impassioned and alive in my life than I have lately. God has opened His flood gates into the centre of my soul, and let me be the first to say, it is incredible! The word of God is moving in me, transforming me, and changing me daily. Life has become an adventure, a journey, an experience again... I am alive with excitement for where I am going and what is happening within me!

I have come to the realization that I am not meant to be a mediocre man, nor do I desire to be. I am not going to have a mediocre life, a mediocre ministry, or mediocre anything. Mediocrity is not good enough for me, it is not what I want... I want extraordinary, phenomenal, and unprecedented impact. I know that this is only possible through one means, and that is God. I have nothing without Him, He is what I need, what I seek after, what I desire... I want God to use me. I know that on a biological level I am no different than any other human on earth... but that does not limit me to a life the same as everyone else.

I know that God has big plans for my life, I know that beyond a shadow of a doubt. I have had two incidents that could have very easily taken my life, medical experts would say I should no longer be "kickin" it on mother earth... yet here I am. God has a plan for my life, Jeremiah 29 promises me that. But with that said I think that to whom much is given, much is required... I have been given infinitely more than I could have ever hoped for, which is an incredible blessing... But I also think it means that infinitely more is going to be required of me, and has been required of me. I feel as though I never have any right to be prideful again (I am unfortunately, because I have so much "ugly!") but I know that anything I have in this world, what I think I have, is a direct blessing, gift, and privilege from God. Something I do not deserve.

I guess you can call me a man on a mission. I know that God has a high calling on my life, I know that there are a lot of expectations on me, and I know that I cannot just maintain status quo... I have to be a leader in this generation, I desire to be a vessel that God uses to reach the nations.


I went for a directionless drive with a good friend yesterday through neighbourhoods and on the high way. I passed countless houses, cars, people on walks... All I am sure have a great life, but it made me realize there are many people doing the same, mundane things on a daily level , living life at status tuo (wa-ohohoh, stick to the status quo.. HSM anyone?) BUT I am beyond convinced that as Christians we have so much more to offer this world.

We can and should be a movement. We are called to be a movement of love, hope, joy. This movement is one that cannot be stopped.

In fact, the only thing stopping us is ourselves...

Be blessed,

kAt.