Wednesday, October 28, 2009

It's all about this.

It is so easy to get distracted from what really matters in life, isn’t it?

It is really quite simple to lose site of the one thing that matters and to drift towards the concerns of the world. For example, the culture in which we live offers us so many lenses in which to view our social status through. We can look at life through the lenses which judge our worth by how much (moola wise) we’re worth, or the fashion lenses (no not sunglasses) which, when looking through, we must compare ourselves to see if we have the latest and greatest “threads” on the street. There are the lenses which tell us we have to look like we have it all together, at all times, and anything less than this is far less than appropriate, acceptable or okay. Thousands of voices screaming at us daily saying “meet this standard,” “look like this model,” “act like this celebrity,” “buy this and oh yes, I promise you’ll be happier,”… Yeah, you know those sound familiar. And let’s be honest for a moment, we’ve all given in to these voices at some point, to some degree, maybe not one of the four examples I gave, but I know, and am willing to bet, at some point throughout your (who knows how many) years on life, you have given in to the tempting voice of our culture to satiate that desire to “fit.”

Please don’t think for a moment that I am speaking down to you. Trust me, I have done, and still do, and unfortunately (as I am human) will continue to fall for these stupid temptations over, and over again. I have tried the money game, the fame game, the clothing game, the sporting game, the popular game, and I have sucked at everyone of them, I have lost them all, not even been close to the king of any of them… BUT, I did learn one thing, they are all futile, they are all useless, they lead to nothing but complete emptiness.

The more I have attempted to view myself through the eyes of the world, the more I have come to a realization of one thing, which is, it leads to nothing. I need to view myself through the lens of the cross.

A professor at my school spoke in chapel last week about how everything we do must be centred on the cross. For chapel, he placed a cross directly in front of himself, at the front of the stage. It was a little uncharacteristic of an Ambrose chapel speaker to have a cross directly in front of him, in fact, to be honest it was a little intrusive to his personal space, but isn’t that just the point? That the cross should be at the very forefront of our minds so that no matter what we do, we say, or anything we see, the cross should be at the very front of that, before that? (I unfortunately due to feeling ill wasn’t at the chapel, so all of that was relayed to me by friends who were there)

When we look at ourselves we must see ourselves through the eyes of Christ, the eyes of the man who gave His very life to forgive us, to be in relationship with us, to have us follow Him. We have got to! When we try to judge our value, we must use the cross as the weigh scale, in that if it doesn’t line up, hold to, and work with the cross, it’s not worth having in our lives. If what we’re focusing on isn’t focused (in some way or another) the message of the cross, I sometimes wonder is it truly worth out time? I’m not saying everything else is bad, far from it, "for physical training is of some value", what I’m trying to say is that we must remember that our number one priority has absolutely got to be the cross. If other things are hindering the cross from being our central focus, if other things are blocking our eyes view on the cross, if things are in the way at all, they have got to be dealt with.

First and foremost, above all else lies the message of the cross. When we look at ourselves we have got to see the body that Christ died on the cross to save, when we look at friends, when we look at enemies, when we do our homework, when we work, when we play, when we lay down to go to sleep, we must keep at the forefront of our minds the cross.

-kyle.trigg

The Search

Something I found on my computer from years and years and years ago. Thought I'd share it


The Search


He searches, searches in vain
Willing to do everything but surrender
He is too wrapped up in the world to abandon it
But that is exactly what he needs to do.
So he searches, but he does so half heartedly.
He goes through the motions afraid of what he might find.
He looks like the model man
But only he knows what it is like to be in his shoes.
To be behind the mask.
To be the hypocrite that nobody knows.
He needs to surrender, but He is afraid of the unknown.
So he searches, searches in vain.

Huh... I wonder how many people can relate to that. Faking where you are at, pretending to have it all going on, but truly being scared to death of admitting the reality that you don't, and being scared of letting go and letting God take control.

-kyle.trigg

Monday, October 26, 2009

It's been a long while, I know

I just went to my blog and realized I haven't published anything since April. What a shame that is! You may look at that as an indication of how busy I am, which is extremely, but nonetheless, it's a misfortune that I haven't published anything on here for so long.

However, I have been writing. I have lots of neat things saved onto my computer, even drafts on my blog that are just awaiting editing before I post them on here, and I have some unfinished thoughts floating in my head that will (hopefully) very soon arrive on this here blog.

For the meantime, I think I have come to the conclusion that in life, I am too busy. I have too much going on, too many things I have committed myself too, and too many things occupying my time. They are all very good things, which is the struggle, but there are far too many. I realized this over the weekend when in conversation, nearly everytime the topic of how many things I am involved in and how busy I am came up, which is a tragedy really.

I think this is dangerous, being as busy as I am. In some ways I guess it's good, the good ole cliche of how being busy "keeps me out of trouble" which is true, I do not even have time to get in trouble. So I suppose I'm thankful for that. But, there is also dangers involved, and that is what I am starting to realize.

Wish I could expand on this thought a whole lot more, but I have a book that doesn't read itself! I think I am going to try to be more intentional and dilligent about writing on here. As an external processor (and a very, very obvious E.P., as in you'll be hard pressed to find someone that processes more externally than I) this is a good way for me to see what is truly going on upstairs. Most of the time I have thoughts floating in my head, and I am not even aware they are there until I start to write... Maybe, this is the truly best formula for me to stay sane?

Oh, and P.S. if I were to listen to the news, I would probably have H1N1, a super bug, something wrong in my lungs, an aneurism, a broken rib, and tore my ACL... At least, that's how I feel - I feel terrible! My head is very near explosion, I'm afraid. Got a nasty cough, my knees be hurtin' that's for certain, and my back hurts too! Oh the joys of being a student and an athlete, who is (ironically) too busy to sleep enough, which leads to me being sick. But that's okay, my life is completely full of joy because of what I get to do, just at times I get overwhelmed with all of my commitments, so I need to write about it to stay sane.

-kyle.trigg